so... its me again. the man who doesnt like to update his journal all to often, and truthfully doesnt read many other peoples, i just write in here when i need something to do, or when something tickles the back of my mind. so as most of have you have already noticed... the topic of todays conversation is that of marriage. i have the reception of one of my realy good friends this comming weekend. I am his best man, and with that has apparently come zero responsibilty. at least, that is what the case was originaly. it wasnt until i heard complaining about all the shit he had to do, that i decided to take some stuff off his hands, shit he should never have been doin in the first place. Like a slide show... you can't make your own slideshow! you wont put in the good pictures! so anyways, i took over that project and completely redid it. infact i am still doing it. it is actualy a pain in the ass... even with dedicated slide show programs.... its takes a long time! for a 10 minute slide show... i have put in like 8 hours of work... stupid computeres... supposed to make things easier. anyways... i also am in the midst of planning the bachelor party... and trying to find decent strippers.... that is also hard, cause all the decent, and by decent i mean clean... strippers are kinda expensive! then i have to get confirmations... man... i should have said no to being best man! oh... then there is the speach that i have been told that i dont have to make, though i have a feeling that in the middle of the reception i will be asked to make a speach... so... just... blah... and that means i should prepare a little something before hand, but i dont usualy do that... and wlell... helll... here i am... oh hell, i dont know.... being asked to be the best man, is awesome... but do you ever wonder... why me? i mean of all the friends he has.. he asked me.... i just... blah... so yeah... slide show almost done... bachelor party almost done.... speach... no where near it. otherwise... life is good!

okay... i am tired... bored... and need sex. later

Dear friends,

as you can tell, i havent been on very often, and when i do write something, it tends to be controversial. Well today is of no exception. The world as we know it, is going down the drain and we dont seem to be doing very much about it. It seems that we are being led off to the slaughter house by Iran. Some of you right now are probably wondering what exactly i am talking about. I will give you the low down. Today, in the national post, an article was printed about Iran. The have started the process of passing a law that is changing the way people must wear clothing in Iran. For catholics they must wear a red stripe on top of their clothing. For Jews, they must wear a yellow stripe. Now for all those who have just read what I said... i am not shitting you. Iran apparently wishes to become the next Germany.... the next nazi germany i should say. So... as you can tell i am absolutely out raged at this. And i am outraged for several reasons. The first reason is that the National Post was the only news paper to report this! the globe, and the star... nothing! i went online to the BBC, and nothing. that just boggles the mind!

Another reason why i am pissed is because of this... "Never Forget".... apparently... people have forgotten. Apparently, people dont remember that this was the first step in Nazi germany, in a long line of steps, to eventualy "rid the world" of the jews.

Another reason why i am pissed... so far, no one has spoken out about it! come on! you'd assume that someone from the jewish community would decide to step up, and say something!

What else am i pissed out about? how about, how this should not be happening. And yet... this is minor compared to what is happening around the world. People are dying... being murderd, slaughtered... and yet... nothing... nothing is being done... this world is going to hell... and there is no one trying to do aynthing to stop it. even me.

Here is the link to the national post article. I urge everyone who reads it to forward it to all their friends, no matter their race, religion, or nationality!

http://www.canada.com/nationalpost/news/story.html?id=398274b5-9210-43e4-ba59-fa24f4c66ad4&k=28534

Plz... something must be done.

okay... finaly took the time to upload new pic... no big yellow hat anymore... instead... big ass beerglass!!

cheers

shaun

It has been for freakin ever since i have posted here. And i bet most people who have me as a friend will be quite surprised to see me blogging, or journaling, or what ever the fuck i am doing right now. It has probably been well over a year since i last used this thing, and i am not so sure why i actualy decided to come back to it, i guess it was something to do. Although, in the grand scheme of things, i actualy do have things to do if i wanted, so that just makes it more confusing for me. I dont know anymore. I have a lot of thoughts running through my head, and anyone who reads this, if you are offended, i could say i am sorry, but i am really not.

i have a group of friends. or should i say, I had a group of friends, from way back when. we all went to highschool together, we all hung out, we all got together and did fun stuff. we had chrismas dinner, and when the time arrived, it turned into a chrismacha party. anyways, as the years have gone, this group has steadily lost its way. Actualy, i am not sure if that is fair. you see, even back in Highschool, i could have told you that with in our group, there were about 4 distict micro groups. and as such, it is those micro groups that have survived, and grown stronger as opposed to the entire group. infact, in most situations, i barely talk to anyone in the group, i just have a select few whom i try to stay in touch with, but even that is hard these days. but realy, why is that? i dont do anything, is there more i can do? I'm not sure. and here is a prime reason. in the past month, i have sent out a couple of mass emails to my old school group of friends. to the whole group. now the first one i got nice reply's and people started to ahve conversations and what not. unfortunately, the more i tried to do it, the less and less people responded. My feeling... people began to ignore it, or read it and felt they have nothing to contribute to it. unfortunately they dont realise that a simple act of saying HI, i am still alive, is good enough for me! so why dont i get on the phone and start making phone calls, or something like that? i dont know. maybe my thought is that if they cant the time to write a simple email, why should i take the time to make a simple phone call? and then the question arrives in my head... do i realy care that much. And here is the sad part. I dont. I just dont care anymore. the group split up, and that is all there is to it. I have stayed in touch with the people i want to stay in touch with, and i guess the people who want to stay in touch with me, have tried to do that. And that is all i can gather, or bother to assume these days. if someone wants to talk to me, they would talk to me, right? if someone wants to be my friend, they will talk to me right? am i under the wrong assumption?

i dont know.... there are a couple of things happening in my life right now, that most people dont know aobut, and that most people will never know about. its one of those things that you have to keep a secret from everyone, but is something that affects you the most. i can only hope that some of you have gone through something like this to maybe understand what i am saying. this thing is just eating me up inside. Its take the joy of life out from under me. And there is absolutely nothing that i can do about it. It is just something that has to be done, whether i like it or not. and i am not liking it one bit. i okay during the days, it realy hits me while i am at my computer at night. that is when it realy starts to bug me. like i said, i want to say more.... its too bad i cant

on a brighter note, i am going to europe again. i think i want to live there, and i think i want to live there to get out of here. last time i was there, i was free. i had no worries but what was right ahead of me. it was like a fresh start on life. it was incredible! and i am going back. to places i have never been! i am so excited for this trip, i cant stop thinking about it. and once again, i am going alone, only enhancing the freedom factor.

well, i think i need to change that picture i have there... its a bit old!

Okay people,

So i e-mailed out chapter 3 to my story. I realise that it may not have been as exciting as chapter 1, but i ensure that it will get moving! I must say though, i am a bit disturbed, or depressed at the lack or responses by people about my stories. True, we are all very very busy. But if you people are that busy, at least tell me! and maybe i will put the stories on hold! Come on people, i ask for your input for a reason! and to get no responses at all, is realy realy discouraging. Anyways, to those of you who actualy read this, maybe you will have the decency to actualy respond and tell me your thoughts.

Well that is it. good luck on all your exams.

Hello all, I finaly finished chapter 2 late last night. And as such, i also sent it out to everyone's e-mail late last night. I hope you all recieved it, and enjoy reading it! As we speak, chapter 3 is in the works. I am sorry for the length of time it takes for each chapter to be written, but as with all of you, i have lots of work to juggle with writing this story!

Anyways, i hope you all enjoy it!! Check your e-mails!

if you didn't recieve tell me

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Yes. the subject speaks for itself... but i must be more explicit. The very First Chapter is now complete. it stands at 15 pages. So now the question begs, how do i get it to all of you! I am thinking e-mail... it will probably be the easiest... i hope.. i will try to send it out either later tonight, or tomorrow at the latest!

anyways, hope all is well with all of you... the lack of entries is a bit discouraging... but any whoooo

Most of you are probably wondering just what is going on with the story i told you all about. Well, don't worry! the story is being written. It isn't exaclty being written in order or anything, but the first chapter should be done very very soon. Just so you all know, this is a list people's futures who i have written and those who i haven't gotten to yet.

Wrote:
JUDY
MATT
KEVIN
DEBS
ADAM
LINDA
ME!!
BRIAN
ROBERT

Haven't WRitten:
JEN/JON
BRYAN
SHOSHY

If i am missing anyone, pls tell me. but i believe that is all. anyways. I have should have those three done hopefully by the end of the weekend. that will all be chapter 1. As of right now... it is 11 pages. So lets assume that when i am done will be between 14-15 pages. Chapter 2 is half written and is much much shorter! after that, i haven't written anything cause chapter 1 is so freakin long!

Oh... Here is a question for those of you who actualy respond.
A) What is the best method of sharing this story with all of you
b) would you like Chapter 1 to be split into different parts, and consequently sent out seperately, or just sent out in one large mass?

anyways, that is it from this end. Thanks all for being so patient with this!

Hmmmm, Down the Rabbit Hole day. I hope you can all understand that this will be quite difficult only because i have so far put all my energy into the other story that i am writing, that is already quite long! But anyways, i bet i can dream up a realy crazy ass story in the next few minutes!

Lets see, how should i start this one out.

I went to bed like any other normal day, at around 4am. It was a regular nites sleep, what with the random dreams, and the tossing and turning. I woke up like any other normal day. Or at least that is what i thought. I walked out of my room to an empty and relatively cold house. I quickly walked over to the thermastat and raised the temperature to a warm 23 degrees. As i walked around the house things began to get weirder. I noticed there were no newspapers and no mail. Now usualy that wouldn't wierd me out, but when i opened my fridge and found it completely empty, that was the turning point. I quickly picked up my phone and called my father on his cell phone. No answer. I called my mom's school. No answer. I called every single friend i could possibly think of. No answers. Thats it. I went back upstairs, pulled on some clothes, threw on my jacket, grabbed my wallet, opened my garage door, put on my shoes, took the car keys and walked out to the garage after looking the dooor behind me. To my surprise, both cars were in the garage. Now this was getting wierd. I got in my saturn and pulled out of the garge and began to drive around. I stopped at the first stop light and waited what must have been 20 minutes. Finaly i just decided to make a right turn so i didn't have to wait anymore. The more i drove around, the less i saw. There wasn't a single car on the road, a single person on the sidewalk. I turned on the radio, but got nothing but static, i quickly scanned all the stations and found them all to be the same. Okay. This was a bit wierd... just a bit. I decided to turn around, and drive downtown. there must be people there, or signs or something.

I took the Dvp, and again, there wans't a single car on the road, and it was like 2pm now! I decided to test out my theory, I 'pushed the pedal to the medal' and sped down the highway at almost 180 kph. and no one stopped me. Hehehe... i giggled to my self... maybe this won't be so bad. I got off downtown at front. and began to drive around. Nothing, no-one, not even a random cat walking around! okay... i am freaked. I saw a Dominion grocery store. I was by Ryerson. I stoped the car in the middle of the road, got out and walked into the dominionm first. No one. The doors were open, but no a sigle person was there. The only good news was that it was full of food! I quickly grabbed my breakfast/lunch, ate it all, and left for the car again. I drove over to ryerson, got out and listened to the absolute silence the encompassed me. I walked into the nearest building and stood there. Nothing. I took out my cell phone, and made one final phone call that would clinche it. 911. nothing. okay then. I am alone. I am alone. I am alone. Holy Shit.

Well, now that it hit me full frontal, i decided to take full advantage of it. I drove up yonge street to where i knew there was a ferrari dealership. Got out of my car, went inside, grabbed the keys to the ferrarir Enzo that was sitting in the middle of the show room, and started the engine. Oh crap... i forgot... its standard. I turned off the car and went to another ferrari, i better practice on one of the cheapers ones! I started the second Ferrari, threw it into first and drove it right through the windows of the show room... the glass shattered all around the car, and left but a few scratches! I threw the car into second gear, slamed my foot on the pedal and the car go for all it was worth... but i forgot to shift to 3rd, and noticed the engine was begining to over heat, i quickly shifted intime, but forgot to hit the clutch, and subquently stalled the ferarri, and droped the clutch to the ground.... crap. I got out of the car, walked back to the dealership and got into another one. After the thrid ferrari, it was safe to say, i now knew how to drive standard. But i made a couple of trips.... I drove the Enzo All the was back to my house, and put it in my garage. I switched cars and got into my dads Acura, And drove that one downtown. But this time i went over to the Hummer Dealership. I went inside, and quickly grabbed the old school H1... the original, the classic... i started the engine and toar it through the windows of the showroom. there must have been some scratch resistant coating or something, because the hummer came out of it with out a nick. i drove that one uptown to the neareest grocery store, packed it up with food, and went home. I unloaded the car, put all the food in the fridge, sat on my couch, and decided, it was time to watch a movie.. hmm... i think i'll go to hmv and load up on everythign they have! Yes... I think this just may work out. Hehehe... i giggled to myself... this could be kinda fun.

Okay people, so chapter 1 and 2 are almost done. So far i have written the future of Kevin, Adam, Debs, Linda, Matt and Judy. I am missing quite a few people as you can tell. I need to know about them, if they even want to be in the story. So if you guys could get in touch with them, cause i haven't seen anyone of em around!

Thanks a lot people!